For anyone interested here is my own personal experience:
It was the very sensitivities of Empathy that mostly alienated me from others to a greater degree, and kept me from having any type of meaningful relationship or friendship with any other persons for the exception of a few who were tagged as strange or misfits as well.
Sensing other peoples' vibes and telling them or mirroring things about themselves that only they should be aware of was rather unnerving for any individual and this is where I learned the hard way that no one liked their horoscope told without the cards.
Sensing other peoples' vibes and telling them or mirroring things about themselves that only they should be aware of was rather unnerving for any individual and this is where I learned the hard way that no one liked their horoscope told without the cards.
But feeling other people psychically or emotionally often caused me to go into depressions. It hasn't been until relatively recent years that I learned about the phenomenon of Empathy or the blue ray as it is in more recent times popularly identified as indigo. Indigo is only a label describing the color of the crown chakra, an intensely sensitive energy flow radiating from the heart chakra. It is through this energy field that one knows and sees things above the physical known reality we live in and even heal other people, animals and plants in varying degrees as well when once one learns how to work with these abilities.
So with all of this psychic and emotional energy constantly going on inside of me it left me in a rather chaotic state of mind, and to compensate for this my thinking process has become more and more complex. In other words, I guess that in order to deal with the problem of sensitivities going through the roof I unconsciously started being able to process my thoughts about many things at the same time, mental multi tasking. (i.e. talking to my friends while working on another project and thinking about present problems as well as the next days, and the day before, constantly analyzing things in my mind etc.) In other words as the old saying goes, walking and chewing gum at the same time.
I was not very efficient at helping people who come to me with problems during that time, not until in later years where I engage my partner to help me screen them before I even attempt to do so, I didn’t trust my judgment of character. I had to learn to say "no!" when I felt that their reasons may be questionable.
Unfortunately there are many people who seek an easy answer exerting as little effort as possible getting the results they want...then trying to work out a solution they may not like without getting a negative reaction when I tell them this truth without sugar coating it.
There are many hazards out there to the unwary Empath. As an Empath there are times where I went out of my way to think the best of another, because I cared and truly wanted to believe them. But this can have hazardous results for those of us with sensitivities to easily getting hurt for that person may know and take full advantage ot that.
And this all used to be quite chaotic and now is just like anything else. As a result the way I talk is, well...sometimes not understandable... Like my brain is going faster than my mouth and I'll leave words or even an entire train of thoughts out at times. Then go back and forth to previous topics as fast as I can in an effort to recover and mend together the lost thoughts then attempting to compensate with a new train of thoughts and ideas. While my mind is busy doing all this balancing act with my own thoughts and still try to absorb what that person or persons had just tried to inform me about, not an easy task.
So the question is, "Is this good or bad?"
Not really bad. Once I knew what type of internal processor I had that drives me I learned rather quickly and adeptly how to utilize these characteristics in a constructive way. I found Empathy to be an asset on many different occasions through the years hence working as a social worker.
The grounding still helps, *using my own auric energy,* when ever I get a chance, but this new awareness and how I now perceive the world around me seems to prolong the stress and that build-up of negative energy or anxious feeling. I still, for some reason, still try to get deeper and deeper into the analysis of what **they** society, media, or what any one individual might be saying and what the true meaning is that lies behind the words.
So with all of this psychic and emotional energy constantly going on inside of me it left me in a rather chaotic state of mind, and to compensate for this my thinking process has become more and more complex. In other words, I guess that in order to deal with the problem of sensitivities going through the roof I unconsciously started being able to process my thoughts about many things at the same time, mental multi tasking. (i.e. talking to my friends while working on another project and thinking about present problems as well as the next days, and the day before, constantly analyzing things in my mind etc.) In other words as the old saying goes, walking and chewing gum at the same time.
I was not very efficient at helping people who come to me with problems during that time, not until in later years where I engage my partner to help me screen them before I even attempt to do so, I didn’t trust my judgment of character. I had to learn to say "no!" when I felt that their reasons may be questionable.
Unfortunately there are many people who seek an easy answer exerting as little effort as possible getting the results they want...then trying to work out a solution they may not like without getting a negative reaction when I tell them this truth without sugar coating it.
There are many hazards out there to the unwary Empath. As an Empath there are times where I went out of my way to think the best of another, because I cared and truly wanted to believe them. But this can have hazardous results for those of us with sensitivities to easily getting hurt for that person may know and take full advantage ot that.
And this all used to be quite chaotic and now is just like anything else. As a result the way I talk is, well...sometimes not understandable... Like my brain is going faster than my mouth and I'll leave words or even an entire train of thoughts out at times. Then go back and forth to previous topics as fast as I can in an effort to recover and mend together the lost thoughts then attempting to compensate with a new train of thoughts and ideas. While my mind is busy doing all this balancing act with my own thoughts and still try to absorb what that person or persons had just tried to inform me about, not an easy task.
So the question is, "Is this good or bad?"
Not really bad. Once I knew what type of internal processor I had that drives me I learned rather quickly and adeptly how to utilize these characteristics in a constructive way. I found Empathy to be an asset on many different occasions through the years hence working as a social worker.
The grounding still helps, *using my own auric energy,* when ever I get a chance, but this new awareness and how I now perceive the world around me seems to prolong the stress and that build-up of negative energy or anxious feeling. I still, for some reason, still try to get deeper and deeper into the analysis of what **they** society, media, or what any one individual might be saying and what the true meaning is that lies behind the words.
Sometimes just picking up vibes from the environment around me. Whatever the vibrations around me are telling me (not questioningly, but mostly just analyzing). I know every time I'll pick up on something new I didn't see before, another piece to the puzzle, this helps me to pieces things together, or go back and try again to see where the piece fits. Dealing with people is easier, but even though my patience grows less tolerant of ignorant comments people make...well, not really ignorant. Just someone trying to up one on me with their attitude...I've noticed too when people do that now...I don't even have to be saying anything. I believe I may even have a sister or two, or brother out there and that includes the web as well. Believe it or not I find it easier to read people on the internet then I do in real life. Maybe that’s because I got more time to analyze postings then I do the words of an individual in real time. Who could vouch to that fact about the general population out there,
"beware of ankle biter!" or “attack house mouse” Hee, hee, hee
Grounding and shielding can be important to those who wish to remain stable through the course of the day. There are many different methods of doing so. One does not have to follow any particular method, just use your own. I do my grounding just prior to saying my morning meditations, first thing upon waking up. There are also many websites on the internet that deals with energy work and how to ground yourself one as good as the other as long as it feels right for you.
Cynthia©
Cynthia©
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